Parenthood is a constant moving rollercoaster. There are moments when time slows down just enough to sit back and exclaim “We did this”. A lot like a rollercoaster at the top of a drop. It slows down just enough for you to take in the incredible view. Michael kissed my cheek and said these words “We did this” as we looked over at our girls, smiling and laughing with each other, earlySunday morning. There are sweet moments like these, and then there are moments where you just want to pull your hair out, because no one is listening, behaving, or moving productively, so we can all get out of the house and be were we need to be. Despite those testing times, it’s an incredible ride. My heart tugs at me when my girls smile, cry, scream, laugh, sneeze, tell me they don’t love me, tell me that I’m the best mom ever. I’ve never been more aware of my heart. It’s tugging all of the time now.
When I was a parent of just one child, I couldn’t imagine being capable of loving another as much as the first. My love for my first was so huge, how could I have room to love another? The answer is simple. Your heart grows, doubles, with a little extra for good measure. You can’t imagine it, just like you can’t imagine how much you would love the first child, but it happened. It took your breath away then, and it will take your breath away again and again. My love for my daughters is immeasurable.
Something that sits in the back of my mind, is that when you love someone, you let them go. My responsibility is to be there for their every need, and then one day, when they’re ready and I’m not, it will be time to wave goodbye. That’s love. Yes, today the girls are very young still, we just started our journey, but in my mind Zoë was born yesterday, she’s 4.5 years old! Skye will be 4 months this Thursday! Time moves quickly.
There are moments that will stand out, that is amazing and special. That’s the gift. That’s all that you get to keep, the memories. Children grow up and they leave the nest. That’s how you know you did your job. You taught them how to survive out there in this crazy beautiful world. What an incredible responsibility, what an honor. I watch as their lives take flight. They begin to develop friendships, hobbies, responsibilities of their own. Our job is to be there for them when they fall, and then stand back, watching proudly when they sail. It hurts like nothing else…But it’s also very beautiful.
The girls are relaxing in their new buttery soft threads out in our city “backyard”, c/o our friends over at Finn + Emma. They’re made with non-toxic, G.O.T.S. certified organic cotton and eco-friendly dyes. Even the snaps are lead/nickel free and feature real coconut inserts! The clothes have a generous fit, allowing room to be worn longer. Skye’s hand-knit rattle, Lily the Pika, is made by an artisanal women’s collective in Peru with G.O.T.S certified organic cotton yarn and wool stuffing. This is her new buddy. We take it everywhere 🙂
Zoë is wearing: Pajamas (elephant print)
*This post is in partnership with Finn + Emma, whose products we absolutely LOVE.*